feels like im coming down wif fever agn. argh. noooo! dowan. the last time i was sick in feb, it was four days of fever. naughty germs, shooo! eeks

well my bro got 4 As for his A levels. on top of dat, he got B for GP. that makes him one of the top scorers in AJ. and his teacher wrote him a super long testimonial, complimenting him on the awards he've won for his contributions towards community work, the events he organised for the sch blah blah. i really cant believe thats my brother.

and he plays computer games all day (and nite) long!! -_-

i realised that i dun even know who my brother is. the boy who stayed up late wif me, taught me how to read (convinced me that words are not ants in disguise), sang kiddy songs to me at bedtime & spun incredible stories for me has faded into a faint memory, having grown into a stranger merely living under the same roof as me. sigh.

now my daddy expects me to get 3 As. diaoz.

HA. fat chance.

tis wk ive been late for sch for all 5 days. and i owe my tchers lotsa hw. my attitude seriously sucks. i gotta pull up my socks. (even though they are ankle socks, with holes) lolz

missing sabasket, now and always. was just listening to our song *take me to ur heart* and then i saw the latest blog entries. whoa very touched. people still care, but im stil kinda scared to put in complete faith. no more life journeys but we can pour our heartfelt sentiments into that blog. bittersweet memories that i will never let go. life has never been the same ever since i came back, from the moment i reluctantly stepped off the plane. the expedition will be one of the precious treasures of my life.

sometimes i feel that i owe xf alot. but i really dunno how to say sorry.

what if, years later
bump into you on the streets
when you look into my eyes
still cant find any words to say
when you walk on by
my heart skips a beat

don wanna take things for granted, cos nothing lasts forever. sometimes dreams turn to tears. anything can happen anytime. i do haf plenty of weaknesses, but ultimately i will choose to be strong. or i will never forgive myself.

wanna melt into the darkness, sit on a swing and stare at the stars all night.


*happiness lives for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives*