Judgement Day

today is one of the saddest days in my life for it marks the beginning of goodbyes. Hearts will break and tears will fall. Im gonna miss everybody so badly...how am i going to fill up the gaping hole in my heart? Cuts my heart to see the class torn..

Getting back our promos results is ten times worse then the release of O-levels results. When ms lim told us how we performed, i could feel the blood draining from my face. Out of the 20 pple in our class, two will be expelled and ten will be retained. Only a miserable number of 8 pple will make it to J2! Every ounce of hope in me flew out of the window. The rhythm of my heartbeat turned irregular and my stomach lurched. I will never forget that feeling in my entire life. Never ever.

so what if i got promoted? i cant bring myself to smile cos i feel so painful for my frens. Emotions of guilt churned through me. Im a lousy asst CT rep. I should haf pushed my classmates to study hard..! Why didnt I? My promotion did not bring any joy at all. My heart was as heavy as before. As i look ard at my classmates' faces, some painted with all kinds of emotions- worry, anxiety, sadness & relief, and some faces blank and numbed with fear, my heart really goes out to them. Less than half of us will make it. That's such a cruel ending.

Twenty individuals from different worlds and backgrounds come together to walk along the same path for close to an year. But now, its time to let go of some hands and say goodbye. Goodbye is such a brutal word. I do love my class and im definitely sad to see people split into different directions, perhaps never to see each other again. Things will never be the same again but i hope that the spirit of 118 will never die.

thanks aarthi for comforting me and accompanying me to the toilet while my tears fall. I cant bear to see people cry, especially teachers, and thats why i haf to look away when ms lim started sobbing while telling us her life story. Jag shared his life story too and it was very inspiring. No matter what happens, we will still be frens and nobody will walk through storms alone. True courage comes from within. When a door closes, a window opens. Never say die.

okay, now dat i've poured out my feelings, i hope that i will be able to luff from my heart again, definitely not now, but someday...

joreen, i love you! hEex =)


"Goodbyes means that we are going to embark on a new journey.."


wat is faith?

" Recently I have been looking up at the night sky, spangled and studded with stars, and I found no pillars to hold them up. Yet they did not fall. " Martin Luther King