this morning i woke up, only to find that the world seemed a little crazier than before. the sky is bluer, for the first time the uncle sweeping the void deck smiled cheekily and greeted me good morning, the people around me were moving at an unusually slower pace, TWO fat birds had the guts to hop happily right in front of me (normally they just fly away) and the YJ security guard still remembers my name -_-

everythg boils down to the strange feeling in my stomach, a premonition telling me that somethg's gonna happen later.

true enough.

i couldnt believe my ears when i heard the news. how could he have died? i was totally shattered, like a part of me died along with him. how i wish it was all a bad dream, and everything would be fine when i wake up. but the pain is just too real, and i know it makes no difference even if i sleep my sadness away. he will not come back to life. i failed to control my emotions and ended up screaming hysterically on the stairs. (sorry, the ears of the people ard me haf suffered. ) i fell into a daze, but his name keep flashing across my mind repeatedly.

i still cant believe dumbledore is dead. he's the force behind the school, the pillar of strength, the much cherished father figure dear to us all. hogwarts is nothing without dumbledore! sighs, when sirius died i thought that was terrible enough, and nothg worse will happen. but who knows..

was already quite traumatized, and my dear frens had to deepen my blows. boyboy was blabbering on and on, "who's dumbledore? is he the fat ugly man?" when i heard that, my jaw practically hit the floor. that statement was like a slap to my face. WHAT IGNORANCE! WHAT INSOLENCE! so i demanded for a breakup, hmphs! BAH!

amir was no better. "dumbledore is the dwarf ah.." DUMB GHOSTY! i was tempted to throw my water bottle at him LOL =P so i had to excuse myself, and hid in the toilet until i felt better.

cindy was the ultimate. "who is harry?" at this point, i didnt know whether to laugh or cry. i just stared blankly. anyways, im comforted to haf corinne and xingjia, we are dumbledore's army! down with voldemort!

was feeling rather lost aftr school, so i went to the bookstore, picked up tuesdays with morrie, and plunged into it. ahh, good stuff for healing.

"life is a series of pulls back and forth. you want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. something hurts you, yet you know it shouldnt. you take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted. a tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. and most of us live somehwere in the middle. sounds like a wrestling match, so which side wins?

love wins. love always win." mitch albom,tuesdays with morrie

---dumbledore rawks---