CNY day one.

today was the first time my whole family (tht tasted weird on my tongue) watched a movie together. the last time we had a family outing, not counting the annual CNY hse visitings, was about ten over years ago. we went to the zoo when i was ard 8 yrs old? i vaguely remember a yellow chick cupped in my lil hands :) its the first time my daddy stepped into a modern cinema, cheers! once he asked me to bring a torchlight when i was going for a show,thts how outdated he is! and we took neoprints too! i almst cant believe tht the outing happened, for i really never expected this day to come. once i had hopes, but they were extinguished. nevertheless, im =)

i tot that i not stupid 2 wld make me cry, as there were quite a number of touching scenes (kinda cringe-worthy if you ask me) tugging at my heartstrings, but i dint cry. too jaded already, seems like my heart has been locked.

this morning i blew soapy bubbles outta my window into the blue sky, watched them float to wherever the wind takes them to, so pretty! but chiyo-chan still prettier! (jie wld agree wholeheartedly)

fourth kiss. first went to a puppy, second to a female friend when we were playg, third to the same friend when we were high on clubbg, no flgs attached. today my cousin cherry came up to me and kissed me! shes 8, and has some mental problem tht causes her to be slower then other kids her age. but i love her best, and she has taught me alot, like how shes never too afraid to show her love. she lets it overflow. she cuddled up to me, pressed her nose onto mine, rubbed it, ran her tiny hands all over my hair, wrapped her hands ard my cheeks, placed her hand over my heart and her eyes never left mine throughout it all. awws, the sweetest thing. i think i felt snowflakes falling all around us. excuse my cheesy lang, the kiss has made me slighty woozy. plus, i think i got drunk on chocolates. chocoholicky grin*

actaully i realise tht i dont really knw how to love anybody, maybe because im too used to thinkg tht the recepient of love wld nv be me. im tryg to learn, teach me, gimme time. i'll show you.